Greetings y'all ,
Well yesterday started off
promising and ended wonderfully but we had a hiccup in between . Hey I
promised honesty and transparency so here goes. We started off well but
my PTSD and his anxiety, which has been on the surface because of
unsavory people doing unsavory things to us , flared up simultaneously. I
slipped and was not therapeutic and the nurturer I usually am. Sadly I
became the parent negative influences said I needed to be and I saw my
son regress. I was able to catch myself and move us forward . He and I
processed and talked and ended up laughing .
However I was devastated that I slipped and became sullen and blue. I
tend to be rather hard on myself. It took a couple of good friends and
our neighbor , who we think is really an angel sent to help us, to
remind me of my good qualities and my humanity and realign my thinking.
My son saw me slip , fall., fail , regroup , rise up , reach out and
keep moving forward. He saw me fail and learn.
Ace suggested as did our angel and friend , we head out and just play. We dropped the top and listened to Imagine Dragons I'm on top of the world!
Wow talk an upbeat mood setter and our our new theme song. I'm sure
people thought we are a tad odd for singing loudly with top down , but
I'm equally sure we didn't care because at that moment it was just the
two of us , the rockin' Robinson boys !
We ended up heading to Toys-R-Us , a store I know many love but I
loathe, so he could spend his Christmas gift card on baseball stuff.
After all he is excited to play little league and in spite of the snow
covered fields the air temp was 60 F . Well Ace got a batting tee ,
wants to practice switch hitting , and his first wooden bat. Seriously a
nine year old who wants to use wooden bats !
Naturally he slept with it
while dreaming of hitting the game winning homer . He's adorable ! I
love his naïveté and innocence after all he's experienced . I love him
so much. He keeps me centered.
We used the tee but not the wooden bat. We found a field with
minimal snow and commenced our spring training . In essence we played on
a field that was swampy, snowy and icy and had a blast ! He got a
baseball training book and DVD at the library Friday night and studied
them before we went out yesterday and applied what he learned . That
right there is a coachable kid.
We followed that with a trip to the grocers . He has decided he
needs to eat like big leaguer , lean protein and leafy greens. He's
ready to get into bigleague shape and has a weight goal and running
goal. Hmm guess that means I'll have to start eating right and getting
in shape too- score !
We wrapped up the evening snuggling and watching " MythBusters" . Like
I said we started strong , slipped but ended strong . Life has it's
vacillations, I think the key is to remember that, not get too caught up
in them and keep moving forward.
Thanks for reading again today folks .now carpe diem!